i hate myself. i am sorry to myself and to everyone, but i do. i have tried and tried to pretend i am ok. but i am not. i hate my life, i hate my failed potential, i hate my body, i hate my face, i hate my useless mind, and i especially hate my desire. i think that i have a lot of good inside, but i hate the fact that i cannot seem to make it work. i do not know who i am. i try and figure it out and i try and think about it. but i do not know. i don't like anything anymore. i don't like life anymore. it seems useless and pointless and stupid. nothing makes me feel really good inside anymore. i hate myself. i am sorry.