PROGRESS

It's getting better. Actually, amazingly so. Things just feel so completely different-- in a great way. Yesterday morning I actually woke up and wanted to get up and out and do things. I had a movie rental that I had previously thought about watching, but I was too interested in going out and about that I pushed it aside. I got dressed, danced to some music on the radio, and went out to do things. Nothing major, but did I mention I danced? And I got out and I wanted to do it. Wow.

Today, I've been thinking about plans for the future, things I want to do, road trips to take with friends, family visits, visits from friends, classes, and other stuff I want to do. I have even started to list things I like. Ok, I know this sounds hokey, but bear with me because a week ago I couldn't have made a list of anything I liked. Now, I know that:

I like children's toys.
I like toy animals, especially cute bugs.
I like real animals.
I like coffee.
I like reading the newspaper.
I like fighting the power.
I like waterfountains and the ocean.

I know, I know, it sounds so hokey. It sounded terribly hokey writing it down too. But you can't know how important that is right now. Last week, even a few days ago, I couldn't even think of a reason to get out of bed. Now I actually have a list, albeit small and hokey, of things of interest. I know I still have work to do and I'm not through these woods yet, but I can see that there is hope and, wow, what a dif'rence a day makes.