I can't find anything! I've been searching my filing boxes all day--- my old, old, old paper files from when I crossed the country and moved here exactly 4 years ago this month (woohoo! happy anniversary to me)--- and can't find my list of contacts from back then that I know I have somewhere. Ugh!

And then I run across this:

A sealed card, never sent, with simply the name "Jack" on the front (Jack was my boyfriend years ago). I break the seal, pull out the card with a picture of flowers on it, and read my love-filled and yet heart-broken writing:

8/10/97
Jack,
It's been a year. Wow... How wonderful.
I love you.
Happy Anniversary.
Reese

I never gave him that card because we broke up on our anniversary and I was angry and sad and devastated and hurt and broken and couldn't give it to him. And what was the point then?

What's the point now?