i'm back home in san francisco now. short trip. very short trip back home to the homestead in independence, missouri. it was great seeing my family. even though it was a short trip, i still feel a little culture shocked being back here in sf. i live and breathe here in sf so much that being away for even a short time makes everything seem so different. and the midwest and san francisco are really like two different worlds. in a way i feel very comfortable in the midwest. i can be a total bum, let myself go, be totally fat, wear crappy clothes or sweats or whatnot everyday, and no one cares. i love that. in san francisco i can be gay and no one cares. hard to make a decision which is the easier life. of course i'll stay here in sf, but there are advantages...

right now i'm at a coffee shop with my friend martin who's visiting. he's brought me a new laptop, which i'm using right now, and, knowing me like he does, has connected it all up for me. very sweet of him. he's the best.

amaya missed me terribly. i missed amaya terribly too. she was all over me after i came home. it was so sweet.

much to post about my trip home. i'll be back.