intense emotions from another:
I miss you and yet, I don't even remember you. I remember what you represent... but I don't remember what you look like, what you sound like, how you were, or what it felt like to be with you. It's all disappearing. My memories of you are starting to vanish and that scares me. And while all of those things are slowly fading, what hasn't are the details of that day. Those I can remember clearly... the way you wouldn't even look at me, and when you did, the way your eyes burned right through me, the disgust in your voice, the panic and fear I felt, being in complete shock as I drove home. I'm still in that shock, I think. I'm numb. I'm empty.

I hold on because I fear that if I don't, I'll forget about you and lose you completely. I guess I'm not ready for that. The thing is, I know that you'll never come back. I know that it's entirely impossible that we'd ever work this out and it'll never be the way I wanted it to be. I know that I need to let you go. It has to end somehow, but how? When?