over the last year or so i've been recruited several times by a board member, and old colleague from my kc political days, of the aclu based in kansas city, the aclu of the full state of kansas and western half of missouri, to be their next executive director. what an amazing opportunity and a humbling belief in my abilities.

i've done much thinking about this over the last year, and especially within the last few months, since they are ready to hire soon. and, in the end, i don't want to move back to kansas city. and i love living here in san francisco, even though i'm going broke trying to live in this expensive world.

but i can't leave my dreams here in sf to go back. i have many dreams here that are still unfulfilled and i am working to make them happen. i'm also enjoying just the day-to-day life here. i'm afraid that if i did go back, even for an amazing job, i would be depressed and sad and bored. so i've decided not to apply and had to let my colleagues and friends know i wouldn't be coming home. part of me feels sad about letting this go; the other part is thrilled that i have made a decision and i know more and more about what i want in life. and that always seems to be the hardest thing to know.