this is a pretty hard-to-read article about the difficulties of dealing with your biggest secrets in public life. i feel for the guy immensely, the former governor of new jersey, and i just may pick up his book sometime. it really is hard to be openly gay for many, many people; most people in the world. it was hard for me until i came to terms. and frankly, there are still many, many issues with being gay in this society that aren't the most pleasant or happy in the world. there are limitations in life and they suck. there are limitations in my own life and they suck, suck, suck. it's not just 'will and grace' everyday. and even 'will and grace' pretty much sucks anyway too.

but after saying all the above, i wouldn't be someone else for the world. and i've found true happiness being myself, finding myself, and living my life the way i believe and the way i feel. and i'll make the world catch up with me and with having openly gay people throughout the world. and as some of the world catches up slowly, it's beautiful everytime. and when the full world catches up, it will be a terrific beautiful day.