as i prepare for my trip tomorrow, i find myself feeling strange

first, i don't seem to be nervous about the flight
perhaps i will be tomorrow, and of course, it could sink in at any time, and frankly, it does when i think about it
but the fact is, i don't seem to be thinking about it.

second, this really feels like a tremendous adventure.
not just a vacation
not just a trip
but as if i'm changing my life
upending the normal
doing something miraculous

i have everything seemingly in order
all systems are go
i'm ready
and my only worry right now
is making sure i get on the plane
for i find myself excited to get on the plane
and that's never been the case before

something feels different about this trip

and i'm loving it