I'm frustrated by and tired of the same old usual stuff in my life but there seems to be this part of me that feels unsure about changing things. it's almost like I'm afraid to let go of all my inhibitions. and I wonder about how old I'm getting and whether it's useful to even ponder something different when I'm probably past my time to change things again. but then I know one always thinks that and it's never true. so I should deliberate this hunch and concept more