So tonight I got MAD. MAD MAD MAD. It just hit me. How dare that guy stand me up! How dare men be SO horrible! I had to go to the Castro of all places for an errand and I just ended up STOMPING around from block to block, giving every man I saw the EVIL eye and mouthing HATEFUL and ANGRY statements under my breath. I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs "MEN SUCK!!!!!!" but I was too afraid that I'd hear some laughing ditzy guy yell back "Oh, yes we do darling!" and I didn't want to hear that. I didn't want to hear jokes. I didn't want to hear anything. I wanted to just block everything out and scream. Why do I always date losers? Goddammnn my ex was a *@#*^% loser! And now all I get is losers losers losers and jerks. Ugh, all men are horrible. I HATE MEN I HATE MEN I HATE MEN I HATE MEN.

But then I calmed down a bit, had a lovely dinner, went to the music store and bought a whole bunch of cd's on sale, went to the bookstore and bought some fun books for my niece (who I get to see this WEEKEND!) and then came home. Now I'm tired and ready for bed. But I just opened my mail and got a bribe from the president to vote for him next time and I know that yes it's nice to get money but I also know that it's coming from horrible horrible places and that the country is going to fall apart and that we won't have any social security or important programs to protect us from diseases or help us when we get laid off, but yes it is nice to have some extra money. But this whole bribe makes me MAD MAD MAD. It's like saying yes to yummy gruel when in actuality people in the other room are getting steak and you're destroying your ability to get gruel in the future. Does that make sense? I'm rambling tonight and angry and just MAD. Probably both definitions of "mad" work in this case. I'm going to stop talking now.