I haven't mentioned this on here before, but lately I've sorta been seeing someone. He's the sweetest, most wonderful person. He likes me for who I am, listens to my thoughts, is incredibly smart and sexy and just a totally great guy. Totally boyfriend/husband material. But..... for some reason it just hasn't been feeling right and I've been pushing him away. At first I thought I was pushing him away because I was scared, but now I think it just doesn't feel right. I don't know. Last night I broke it off with him and he was very sad. I was very sad. The stakes of love are just too high and too horrible and I'm going back to non-emotional meetings from now on. I'm just a horrible, horrible person for having hurt him and turned him away. I should never have tried to love; it just gets people hurt. I'm going to isolate myself now.