PRIDE & SELF ESTEEM

It's every day. Everyday I wake up and try to decide what to wear. We all do it. How much of that decision is based upon self-esteem and who we hope to impress today? We all say things in our heads like: I can't wear that anymore cuz it makes me look fat. That makes me look skinny. That one seems outdated, but I like it, but I can't "get away with it" anymore. That one is the latest fashion, but I personally don't really like it. I wish I had a better body and a better face so that I could look good in these clothes. I wish I looked better. Damn, why can't I be better? Those movie-stars sure do have it good.

The whole morning is devoted to it-- to making ourselves our "best" for the world. Does it take a nice dress, nice shoes, nice shirt to make us feel special or at least appreciated and liked by society? Who are we, as a species, that we must worry about these decisions so incessantly to where we don't feel good about ourselves unless we project the "best" image-- the image, not the individual, the image that we want the world to see?

I just ask these questions and note these thoughts. I don't have answers.