So what I alluded to in previous posts of late is that I quit my job today. This was not an easy decision, nor was it something that I wanted to see happen. But it had to and it's done. My last day will be at the end of May.

When I first started this position as Executive Director of a statewide healthcare organization two years ago I cannot tell you how excited and determined I was. It was as if I'd finally come home. I was to lead a nonprofit for a good cause, coordinate major healthcare conferences to assist our public health system, work with dedicated volunteers and committees, and travel throughout the state. How perfect for me. I was ecstatic.

Then in 2002, over a very slow, gradual process, everything began to unravel. I'll spare you the extra long version of this story, but I'll suffice it to say that my job was never the same. Basically, the state took control of my organization in a series of small moves that eventually led to my organization being run by them. I was no longer an Executive Director, but a state cog in the beaucracy. Even my title and position were changed to fit with what they wanted-- a position and a title that I worked all my life to achieve. It was demoralizing and tremendously hurtful. And it just got worse after that. I'll spare you the day-to-day agony, pains, hurts, hits to my pride, and fears. It has been just terrible.

And now on to my new life! No, I don't have a job yet. Yes, I know that's insane and I'm crazy and Amaya, my cat, and I will soon be living on Jessie/Chris's couch (we'll talk). But it's the right thing to do. For me. For my career. For my future.

I have had some great interviews that have unfortunately led to some disappointing results. But I have hope that I will soon have a great interview that leads to a great result. And I hope and pray for the best. So wish me luck. And remember me when I come calling for $. ;-)