Drain

There certainly comes a point when it no longer functions, no matter how much I try I have reached the end, the end of the road, so to speak, so to say, so to feel, I have drained all that is within me, all that can be with me, all that is left is the lifeless and listless bodies who can no longer exist together, when at times like this there never seems to be another possibility, another resolution, another new hope that something may change the fact that we have reached the point of no return, the point of never going back, the point of isolation and chaos where nothing is possible but the end of the dream that was shared, all the hopes and dreams and possibilities and loves and lives have been drained from us and I am left with the sadness and disbelief in creating a new life with proposed new hopes and dreams and possibilities and loves that I never really wanted to consider but now there is nothing left to do but ponder that new road that new path that new existence which I didn’t really want to ponder but I am left with nothing else to do but ponder that new existence that new road that new path as I am left, left at the wayside of the road I had been traveling, where my feet have stopped along the side of the road, recognizing that the path down this dark road is not the right and appropriate path for me to undertake if I am to be whole and full and the best I can be, so I am left, left to choose another road, looking in all directions, but the one I hoped I would be on, because I hoped that the road I was on would turn out to be the wonderful road of hope I had hoped and dreamed once before and now I look and wonder which of the alternate roads, the short cuts or the long ways, the low roads or the high roads, the easier roads or the more difficult ones, is the best for me to pursue in moving ourselves forward through this life that I sometimes lead but more often than not follow. So with all that, with all that has come before me, with all the effort and time and energy and hopes and dreams and love and life I have put into the expense of this road that I have taken, I am now faced with the recognition that I can no longer go down this road even though it is the road that I had hopes and dreams and given all my life and love and attention and energy to throughout the winding path of this road, throughout the length of the road of which I had taken and from where I began to where I currently am along the way side of the road, realizing that I have gone as far as I can go down this path, for I am at the end of the path of which I can go of which I am allotted of which I am allotting myself the extent of this path because I know now that I have gone as far as I can down this path to where I still have some life left to move to another path in order to continue my life and my dreams and my hopes and my love, and although this is not what I had hoped or dreamed, it is the alternative to which I must move and steel and gird myself in order that I have a future life and love and hope and dream that no longer drains me of the very life and love and hope and dream I put into it. For I am drained now in this world of this path and a new one must be taken.