CHANGES

I really am SO much happier these days. I've started remembering what "my life" and my interests and my personality are. No, I still do not have a new job lined up. Yes, my last day and my last paycheck are in a few weeks (at the end of the month). Yes, I am somewhat nervous. But mostly, I am happy.

I can feel it in my bones. I'm singing and dancing and humming around the apartment, and frankly, around the streets of San Francisco too. I have interests again in bettering myself and my community (i.e. my Spanish classes, my training to become a volunteer with a youth center, my actually studying for my Spanish classes when I'm at home, my planning further education opportunities for myself). What a difference a Change makes. Granted, it's a dangerous and scary Change. But how can I argue with the current results of my attitude on life?

It is hard out there. I won't lie. The number of interviews these days are paltry, if any. The number of jobs I have an interest in are small, but substantial enough to keep me hopeful. The economy truly SUCKS. And I'm still not sure what I'm going to do.

But I do firmly believe this Change I've hoisted upon myself will be for the better, especially in the long run. In the short run, I'm not sure what will happen. But I know that this Change has brought with it so many positive results already. I just hope for one more big one very soon. In the meantime, I'm going back to humming and smiling. Join me?